Err... Can't sleep!

Err... It's hot!!!

Will phillip dumped me... As if i needed this, i have been craven meth and it's all mist up i never ever like the idal of meth at all so i gust every time i get hurt i start craven a new drug maybe i need to try it... It might take my mind off things with phillip and me and i can lose wait this way. Hopefully... Will here goes my life.

Welp phillip and me didn't work out, he said he can't date me till i turn 17 bc his grandma or whatever i thank i'm done with love 4 a little while

Today phillip and me have been dating a month :)

Tips

Ok pj wasn't all what i thought he would be 4 months and then he cheated yeah i'm so flipin hurt i just want it to go away and yeah to night i cuted alot i don't need to let boys get to me 4 goodness shake!

It's I LOVE MY GIRL DAY! In 7 minutes something will make you DROP DEAD HAPPY! Tell ten girls you love them including me!! I Love you!!! (Giving this a try)

I miss waken up in his arms. Will ok i only did it one time but i loved it, just waken up with him and the first thing i see that day is his face, and the first thing i feel that day is his arms around me and holding me tight agents his body, and the first thing i smell in tha morning is him, omg! I thank i really really like him i mean i would never cheat on him are anything! I can not stop thanking about him :)

Ok me and pj is DATING now i'm so happy! yeah we been dating sins the 16 of march so happy but i ant going to go anything to miss this up, i really do like him i really can't see myself with out him, and yeah if he reads this he would thank that i'm falling in love with him but i'm not or i don't thank i am anywho gust what he asked me out i didn't ask him he asked me ;), i just want to be with him right now. <3

Blood flows out as she crys... She has been wiping as the lays down to conferent her yeah he wrips his arms around her as she crys then she puts down her knife and finds relief though his eyes whoo whoo she slowly opening yeah she slowly opening a new life as she puts down she knife

All alone the way she feels. Lelf to dail with the srrow pain relief just bite the lip forget about the bleeding the she closes her eyes and finds relief in a knife whoo whoo whoo... Blood flows out as she crys

Shes upset bad day heads to the dresser to drive the pain away notting good has ever came out of this, she opens it notting there but lelf over tears mom and dad have no right she yells anger flows down both her chicks then she close her eyes and finds relief in a knife blood flows out as she crys

yesssssssssss aand thank you god

ok will you know i was trying to get with this alsome boy =), will he asked me out and will you no what i said yesss.... and we been dating seents 5.16.11. lol i'm so happy. ok i'm going to text him tonight if i can lol 

I don't want notthing to do with my dads side. Err...

Wow, you 4 real this is going to happened to me :) 9months tell i'm with him

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YEYYYY and NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok my borther got out last night yeyyyyyyyyy.......

but the NO is that pj ant going to c me as much..... i really laike him. and he want date me bc of my borther and what not anywho....... i'll post something in a mint

i love this pic. ;)

Lil momma your eyes
the candle light magnifies
hazel turned grey
then bluer than a summer day=)

giving up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

will to day was alsome it took my mind off things. will i am done with dating 4 a few months bc i get hurt to much and im starting to seem like a ho although i only did it with one boy in the past 8 months but you no how some boys are there going to talk even though i didn't do it with them hell one of them i never kissed them. so yeah all im doing is chilling with boys notthing else.

Will ok im in the mood to go riden in listin to music. My fav thing to do is to listin to music lol it makes bad days good and good days alsome ;)

Will ok im in the mood to go riden in listin to music. My fav thing to do is to listin to music lol it makes bad days good and good days alsome ;)

HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

will some times pain comes off and on will i don't give a fuck anymore all guys do is use me will i don't only two but that was my 1st time and 2ed and pretty sure its going to be like that 4 now on ;( i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it seems theres no good guy in this world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i gust im givin up and trying not let anybody in bc every  time i do i get hurt and every time its bader and bader and it makes me want to cut deeper

Ok well i hate being me it sucks so bad im happy though that there some pple like me in this world and not all perps ;) lolz

Why can't some pple under stand wen i want to be by my self to just leve me alone );

Ok will i hate this im cutin agen. Its not cool at all i just want to law in a dich and die. It seems like every gay i talk to stops talking to me or just use me 4 sex o will f them. . And will idk yet i hate this i fall to fast all i want is some one to love me and mean it );...

Amber is on coke-cola lolz its the stuff man lolz i loved lass night lolz i had the time of my life lolz steel happy from it lolz i don't want to come down from it lolz man theres alot of lolz in this thing. lolz ;)

Err... Shot me now!!! And take me out of this pain.

Sometimes i look at the scars and thank how stuped can i be and how ugly thay are and then other times i feel like maken more );

Ok will sometimes i want to yell ftw to every thing that ps me off

I fix my tattoo and some of the pain went away. But i kinda have some ok all i want is to have some one to love me and thats it

God i just want all this pain to go away its like i cry over everything now.
I feel so unloved and my mom loves me. Its like maby i am a ho bc i need to have a guy to make me feel loved. ); and it hurts to no that a guy i like don't talk to me that much or hang out with me anymore.

Ok will my bother ant getting out so thats a litte sad 4 me and now i gust me and my friend ant hangin anymore bc he don't talk to me that much anymore so im a litte hartbroken. And austin seems to just want me 4 sexs ]; will at lest i got my mom...

Omb!!! Moms getting out to night lolz ;) DON'T SEEM THAT LONG LOLZ I LOVES HER. I REALLY LIKE AUSTIN THOUGH AND...

Moms getting out today yey! Lolz

God some times i just thank how could dis ass hole b my dad its just not right he hates me and then makes me live with him, its like hes not happy tell someone is hurting . I cant believe it took me 14 years to see that he don't want me all he cases about is angela ,my sister, he don't no how much i have him the other day he was betting me and i said something about u ant going to bet me like ya bet my mom all my life and he started lighfin and hit me really hard sometimes i wish he would stay out of my life

Ok will last night didn't go as i planed ); bc i was going to go to church and i fell asleep and didn't wake up tell 1am and went back to bed so whatever my mom got one day lelf yey! And john-boy got like 3 days ;) and i found out y austin is mad at me );. And he dose the same to all the girl he talks to so yeah i gust he just wants me 4 sexs and thats it ;( o will just a hoe like always.

sleepy

ok will to day was not my day...

it all started lass night me and my dad got in to it. he hit me and now i got brozes ;[ and now austin seems like he don't want notthing to do with me and i can't do anything with him bc my friend likes him idk im adout to go crazy its like every thing that i love gets tookin from me and now everything i try to love leves to now. i feel like leven dis stuped place toone T.N is starting to make me go crazy, i have been liven here all my life thats 15 years of waken up to the same things o will mom gets out friday yeyy 2 days and johnaton gets out monday at 12 am...

i really hope austin and me gets together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi

errr...

ok will it was like a month then i cutted agen... idk whats worgn with me.

ive been so sick and i go to puck and then notthing will come up. any who tha boy that i laiked alot will we ant hanging out no more ;( o will im hanging with dis alsome emo boy now he is so cool lolz he don't cut though....

i miss everything these days... moms getting out friday and  my borther monday yeyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

dis PAST weekend

 WILL TO DAY IS GOING OK .LOL.BUT WENDAY  SOMEONE SAID THAY WAS GOING TO KILL ME ARE WHATEVER SO IM GOING TO GET IN A FIGHT ;(.......

WILL LAST WEEKEND WAS ALSOME BC I GOT TO HANG OUT WITH SOMEONE I REELY REELY LIKE LOL. TO BAD HE DONT FEEL THE SAME WAY.LOL IDC THOUGH BC IF I GET HURT I WILL  BE THE ONE THAT DID IT TO ME NOT HIM.LOL OMG....IM STARTING TO SAY LOL ALOT...

ITS BEEN 1 MONTH AND 3 DAYS SEENTS I CUTE LOL YEYYY.... I GUST THAT MEENS IM NOT EMO ANY MORE OR WHATEVER.....

EVERYBODY MIGHT THANK IM CRAZY BUT IDC IM JUST BEING ME WHATEVER THAY THANK FOR ALL I CARE THAY CAN GO F**K THEM SELFS.......

ANYWHO LOL MY MOM GOT LIKE 2 OR 3 WEEKS AND MY BORTHERS GOT 4 TO 5 WEEKS LOL YEYYYYYY............. LOL LOL LOL LOL LO L LOL LOL  LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LO LO L...

today is ok i gust

well i woke up so thats kool all though i have my days were i wont to go to my room and just die but some one told me to keep my head up even if the sun dont shin.

however my mom gets out of rehab 4.8.11 yeyy!!!!!!!! And my borther gets out 4.18.11 @ 12:00am that morrnin even bigger yeyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LMAO! thank god or who ever the higher power is that my mom is clen of meth!!! BTW... METH is a BAD drug to get off of.thats all im sayin on that right now bc you dont wont to get me started on meth is bad!

will i fell 4 dis alsome boy that dont fell the same. so idk what im going to do about me and boys bc i dont wont to make my moms miststakes. lol hes reely alsome and hot we kiss all the time wen were with each orther but  were not together ;(.......  hopfully were hangin dis week lol.:)............



   will im going to talk to you wenday lol



lots of love hopper

today fells like hell

ok....today is a month sents i cuted.its been hell not to cut but im doin it. today dis boy took my cell phone.
that pist me off a lot.errr....

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1. I am Meth

(This was written by a young Indian girl who was in jail for drug charges, and was addicted to meth. She wrote this while in jail. As you will soon read, she fully grasped the horrors of the drug, as she tells in this simple, yet profound poem. She was released from jail, but, true to her story, the drug owned her. They found her dead not long after, with the needle still in her arm.)

Please keep praying for our Children, Teens, and Young adults. Understand, this thing is worse than any of us realize...

My Name: "Is Meth" 

I destroy homes, I tear families apart,
I take your children, and that's just the start.

I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,
The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember I'm easily found,
I live all around you - in schools and in town.

I live with the rich; I live with the poor,
I live down the street, and maybe next door.

I'm made in a lab, but not like you think,
I can be made under the kitchen sink.

In your child's closet, and even in the woods,
If this scares you to death, well it certainly should.

I have many names, but there's one you know best,
I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth.

My power is awesome; try me you'll see,
But if you do, you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go,
But try me twice, and I'll own your soul.

When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie,
You do what you have to -- just to get high.

The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms,
Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms, your lungs your nose.

You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad,
When you see their tears, you should feel sad.

But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,
I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.

I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,
I turn people from God, and separate friends.

I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,
I'll be with you always -- right by your side.

You'll give up everything - your family, your home,
Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.

I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give,
When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.

If you try me be warned - this is no game,
If given the chance, I'll drive you insane.

I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,
I'll own you completely! , your soul will be mine.

The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,
The voices you'll hear, from inside your head.

The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,
I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.

But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,
That you are mine, and we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,
But you came to me, not I to you.

You knew this would happen, many times you were told,
But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.

You could have said no, and just walked away,
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?

I'll be your master, you will be my slave,
I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.

Now that you have met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.

I can bring you more misery than words can tell,
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.

If you care enough, please copy, paste and send this profound poem to all your friends; and share the deadly outcome of this drug that is killing our young people & even our old.

kayla hopper

hi my name is kayla ren'ee hopper im emo and my life sucks. i live with my dad, hes a reel bitch.my mom is in rehab. she was on meth and thank god shes off now. she was crazy wen she was on meth. i have a borther hes lock up in jail 4 meth and i  am in love with a boy name mjj. i have his name in my arm. and the fuck up part is that he told me he love me and then he fuck a chick....