giving up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

will to day was alsome it took my mind off things. will i am done with dating 4 a few months bc i get hurt to much and im starting to seem like a ho although i only did it with one boy in the past 8 months but you no how some boys are there going to talk even though i didn't do it with them hell one of them i never kissed them. so yeah all im doing is chilling with boys notthing else.

Will ok im in the mood to go riden in listin to music. My fav thing to do is to listin to music lol it makes bad days good and good days alsome ;)

Will ok im in the mood to go riden in listin to music. My fav thing to do is to listin to music lol it makes bad days good and good days alsome ;)

HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

will some times pain comes off and on will i don't give a fuck anymore all guys do is use me will i don't only two but that was my 1st time and 2ed and pretty sure its going to be like that 4 now on ;( i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it seems theres no good guy in this world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i gust im givin up and trying not let anybody in bc every  time i do i get hurt and every time its bader and bader and it makes me want to cut deeper

Ok well i hate being me it sucks so bad im happy though that there some pple like me in this world and not all perps ;) lolz

Why can't some pple under stand wen i want to be by my self to just leve me alone );

Ok will i hate this im cutin agen. Its not cool at all i just want to law in a dich and die. It seems like every gay i talk to stops talking to me or just use me 4 sex o will f them. . And will idk yet i hate this i fall to fast all i want is some one to love me and mean it );...

Amber is on coke-cola lolz its the stuff man lolz i loved lass night lolz i had the time of my life lolz steel happy from it lolz i don't want to come down from it lolz man theres alot of lolz in this thing. lolz ;)

Err... Shot me now!!! And take me out of this pain.

Sometimes i look at the scars and thank how stuped can i be and how ugly thay are and then other times i feel like maken more );

Ok will sometimes i want to yell ftw to every thing that ps me off

I fix my tattoo and some of the pain went away. But i kinda have some ok all i want is to have some one to love me and thats it

God i just want all this pain to go away its like i cry over everything now.
I feel so unloved and my mom loves me. Its like maby i am a ho bc i need to have a guy to make me feel loved. ); and it hurts to no that a guy i like don't talk to me that much or hang out with me anymore.

Ok will my bother ant getting out so thats a litte sad 4 me and now i gust me and my friend ant hangin anymore bc he don't talk to me that much anymore so im a litte hartbroken. And austin seems to just want me 4 sexs ]; will at lest i got my mom...

Omb!!! Moms getting out to night lolz ;) DON'T SEEM THAT LONG LOLZ I LOVES HER. I REALLY LIKE AUSTIN THOUGH AND...

Moms getting out today yey! Lolz

God some times i just thank how could dis ass hole b my dad its just not right he hates me and then makes me live with him, its like hes not happy tell someone is hurting . I cant believe it took me 14 years to see that he don't want me all he cases about is angela ,my sister, he don't no how much i have him the other day he was betting me and i said something about u ant going to bet me like ya bet my mom all my life and he started lighfin and hit me really hard sometimes i wish he would stay out of my life

Ok will last night didn't go as i planed ); bc i was going to go to church and i fell asleep and didn't wake up tell 1am and went back to bed so whatever my mom got one day lelf yey! And john-boy got like 3 days ;) and i found out y austin is mad at me );. And he dose the same to all the girl he talks to so yeah i gust he just wants me 4 sexs and thats it ;( o will just a hoe like always.

sleepy

ok will to day was not my day...

it all started lass night me and my dad got in to it. he hit me and now i got brozes ;[ and now austin seems like he don't want notthing to do with me and i can't do anything with him bc my friend likes him idk im adout to go crazy its like every thing that i love gets tookin from me and now everything i try to love leves to now. i feel like leven dis stuped place toone T.N is starting to make me go crazy, i have been liven here all my life thats 15 years of waken up to the same things o will mom gets out friday yeyy 2 days and johnaton gets out monday at 12 am...

i really hope austin and me gets together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi

errr...

ok will it was like a month then i cutted agen... idk whats worgn with me.

ive been so sick and i go to puck and then notthing will come up. any who tha boy that i laiked alot will we ant hanging out no more ;( o will im hanging with dis alsome emo boy now he is so cool lolz he don't cut though....

i miss everything these days... moms getting out friday and  my borther monday yeyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!